I Am Now Living With FMS (Fibromyalgia)

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Just when i thought my life would start to calm itself down #lol in having picked up my #photography again with a #nikond3300.Everything has now kind of been tipped off the edge in the way of "FMS" Fibromyalgia Syndrome.Before i carry on
i know that some of my long term friends are going to scratch their heads #lol by asking where the hell:D (Big Grin) did this all come from !!!!!.


Nothing has ever seemed normal in the 47 years that i have spent on this planet :D (Big Grin)
and yet perhaps now having been on Deviant Art for nearly 10 years,i have been concealing what i now believe to be Fibromyalgia,one minute i am bouncing about with high levels of activity like posting art nearly every day :D (Big Grin) and then in between that i am having to inform this community about losing my wife to #cancer,followed by me dealing with so called long term chronic pain.

Which i have to say occurred long before my wife's cancer diagnosis in 2012 No, I disagree!
my late wife's passing was highly traumatic,and if you are any way dealing with the effects of chronic pain,there is no way in hell,are you able to fully support that of your partner,if they are terminally ill.


Everyone knows i am not the type of person who enjoys writing journals like this one,simply because my whole life has been a whole list of traumatic upheaval No, I disagree!
As with the fact i am now living with Fibromyalgia even though it appears to be non -inherited it is like other common illnesses/diseases septical to things like trauma or injury,and can be at times difficult to treat too.

Anyway out of the seven or more years that i have had to deal with this so called pain of mine in the way of #Fibromyalgia,there is also the factor where i am kind of 4 years into the #bereavement process of the loss of my wife/soulmate too.


Followed by anxiety,depression and a moderate learning disability as well,we don't often choose,or have a say in how our destinies are going to get mapped out for us,therefore in my case i suffered 6 major traumas where the final trauma.That of my wife's passing in 2013 is one of the  trigger factors for causing Fibromyalgia, i was also emotionally,physically,verbally, and sexually abused as a child too

Next i had my jaw broken in two places /hit with a poker/belt by my Dad,who never wanted children in the first place,and simply told my mum that if she ever had kids he would kill them.So having been constantly provoked by mum who knew what made him flip,simply tried to drown my sister in a bath full of water,failed and then seriously injured me in the process.

in all honesty if i hadn't had that opportunity of falling in love and where for once in my life i was able to forget about my past then maybe now it wouldn't still be now dealing with the onset of this Fibromyalgia !!!!!!!                 


           



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I'm so sorry all of this has happened to you Andrew. :hug: